DREAMWEAVER'S PLANE

    4 Nov 2011

    Cinemalaya Presents
    A Film by Alvin Yapan
    A Vim Yapan/Alem Chua Production
    In Cooperation with BIGTOP Media Productions, Inc.
    and Far Eastern University

    ANG SAYAW NG DALAWANG KALIWANG PAA

    (The Dance of Two Left Feet)

    Starring:
    Paulo Avelino
    Rocco Nacino
    and
    Ms. Jean Garcia

    A college student pursues an attraction to his literature professor by enrolling in her dance class. He enlists the help of her assistant to help him learn the dances, and their closeness reveals something more.

    Background song/poem:

    Kinukumutan Ka ng Aking Titig
    Ruth Elynia Mabanglo

    “Nilalakbay ko ang katawan mo 
    Buwan akong umiikot sa iyong sinukob
    Nilulukob kita hanggang panaginip
    Nilalagok ang iyong tinig

    Natitigmak ako hanggang buto
    Humahagod sa ligamgam ng iyong hininga
    Humihimlay sa iyong mga halik
    Hanggang ala-ala’y mapaknit
    At sa pusod ko’y sumanib.”

    <roughly translated as>

    “I’m exploring your body,

    I’m the moon circling your entirety.

    I enshroud you even in dreams,

    Drinking your voice.

    I am drenched bone deep,

    Indulging in the warmth of your breath

    Surrendering to your kisses

    Until memories become etched

    And gets fused in my navel.”


    (Source: ww.youtube.com)

    1 Mar 2011

    Winter Comes in March

                  

                  Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

    They say it’s spring,

    But winter just started with me.

    March is when the trees

    Shed their leaves for me.

    Have they heard my heart

    And wept their foliage back to earth, our sacred one?


                  People stain their foreheads with mark made of dirt.


    I knew their muted presence,

    Saw the last grip we shared.

    Their unseen eyes have read,

    The silent goodbyes in our final stare.

    Too bad you can never hold nor kiss

    What has fallen to the ground.

                   Dusk to dusk, autumn to winter.

    Recall this month.

    Remember the date.

    When I abhor what used to be adored.

    A cursed time that brings life

    To the one who brought my death.

    I could still trace the nights of mourning

    For unwanted love sent to grave calling from under.

                   Birth brings death as death brings life.

    Today I can hear father screaming,

    A dismal prelude to his coming departure.

    Feeling the torture from our damned blood.

    Mother could only weep as I,

    Weariness marked our faces

    As we speak of impending end.


                  The earth will take you back.

    Should we set the premise

    For the soil that claims him?

    But father wished to be burnt

    And let us keep his ashen form.

    It hurts to speak of it as early as now.

    He has to suffer still like trees of March.


                   What has come up must go down.

    Has the leaves breathed in

    My grieving whispers?

    I wish you’re here holding me

    As I cry like the trees

    And father fades like the leaves.

    For winter comes in March.


                   Everything that has fallen shall rise again.

    Written Match 16, 2006

    (Source: hellopoetry.com)

    20 Feb 2011

     
 
LOVE IN THE MILKY WAY
Here in the immensity of cosmos,I thought I knew The oceans of starsAs the oceans of earth.Why I believed I’d found The expanse soul of allTo contain the enormity of wisdom I gathered over and beneath.But then I learned,I was some lost poetTo a long-perished supernova,Mislead by a glutton black holeFeeding on everything he believedTo be pure admiration from below.Sapping both my faith and fateAnd then spewed out my loveToo foreign for his taste.Two light years gone And so was everything I believed in,Now I am wandering explorerMisunderstood by what he mastered.But like every falling starAccompanied by a wish;Every quivering lightAttuned to the beat Of every man’s heart;I heard your call,Out of billions of beatingsLooming above and under.So this be my eternal vow-I’ll be the wordsmithLoyal to the music of your soulTo letter out your symphonies;To muster your melody;To memorize your tone.And with all these,No longer be I aloneOn my journey to the cosmos.Because you and I beThe song which shall go onFilling the immeasurable space.That despite its galacticDifference to what everyone knew,Never will we be lost.It may not be earthbound,But we know it’s realLike a rare flowerSeeking affinity to the universe.It shall bloom and be rememberedAs one of a kind love In the Milky Way.
***For the Prince of Charms, Julius Nequia. Written year 2004Read more: http://hellopoetry.com/poem/love-in-the-milky-way/#ixzz1DEZ9aaQi

    LOVE IN THE MILKY WAY

    Here in the immensity of cosmos,
    I thought I knew 
    The oceans of stars
    As the oceans of earth.
    Why I believed I’d found 
    The expanse soul of all
    To contain the enormity of wisdom 
    I gathered over and beneath.

    But then I learned,
    I was some lost poet
    To a long-perished supernova,
    Mislead by a glutton black hole
    Feeding on everything he believed
    To be pure admiration from below.
    Sapping both my faith and fate
    And then spewed out my love
    Too foreign for his taste.

    Two light years gone 
    And so was everything I believed in,
    Now I am wandering explorer
    Misunderstood by what he mastered.
    But like every falling star
    Accompanied by a wish;
    Every quivering light
    Attuned to the beat 
    Of every man’s heart;
    I heard your call,
    Out of billions of beatings
    Looming above and under.

    So this be my eternal vow-
    I’ll be the wordsmith
    Loyal to the music of your soul
    To letter out your symphonies;
    To muster your melody;
    To memorize your tone.
    And with all these,
    No longer be I alone
    On my journey to the cosmos.
    Because you and I be
    The song which shall go on
    Filling the immeasurable space.
    That despite its galactic
    Difference to what everyone knew,
    Never will we be lost.
    It may not be earthbound,
    But we know it’s real
    Like a rare flower
    Seeking affinity to the universe.
    It shall bloom and be remembered
    As one of a kind love 
    In the Milky Way.

    ***For the Prince of Charms, Julius Nequia. 
    Written year 2004

    Read more: http://hellopoetry.com/poem/love-in-the-milky-way/#ixzz1DEZ9aaQi

    18 Feb 2011

     
SEASON OF RAIN
Don&#8217;t speak of rainbows now,Because if rain falls at nightNo rainbow ever comes.The band of seven colors,Rainbow is a promiseThat ends disbanded.Dissipated in yourEmpty words,You half-blind prophet.Rain clouds in your galaxiesYou thoughtYou hid them for safety.You did not.I found them.I knew, I watchedYour galaxies through the years.The wisest seer I amI chased away those clouds awayBy my resounding light.Believing you&#8217;ll send the rays back.But failing to read my own fate,I am here on this brimming ocean,Forsaken by you and your story of rainbows.Like stars abandoning their placeOn dimmed bereaved heavensEveryone looked up to,Hoped for each night.This is the season of rain,And when it rains it pours.You left me hereWhen everything is cascading, falling apartWhile you found your own harbor.So don&#8217;t speak of rainbows nowBecause if rain falls at nightNo rainbow ever comes.Light must precede itAnd only I can find itInside me.But rain must fall still,This season of rain.Read more: http://hellopoetry.com/poem/season-of-rain/#ixzz1DEFPtIyk

***One of the things I wrote on my darkest days. -RC-

    SEASON OF RAIN

    Don’t speak of rainbows now,
    Because if rain falls at night
    No rainbow ever comes.

    The band of seven colors,
    Rainbow is a promise
    That ends disbanded.
    Dissipated in your
    Empty words,
    You half-blind prophet.

    Rain clouds in your galaxies
    You thought
    You hid them for safety.
    You did not.
    I found them.
    I knew, I watched
    Your galaxies through the years.

    The wisest seer I am
    I chased away those clouds away
    By my resounding light.
    Believing you’ll send the rays back.

    But failing to read my own fate,
    I am here on this brimming ocean,
    Forsaken by you and your story of rainbows.
    Like stars abandoning their place
    On dimmed bereaved heavens
    Everyone looked up to,
    Hoped for each night.

    This is the season of rain,
    And when it rains it pours.
    You left me here
    When everything is cascading, falling apart
    While you found your own harbor.

    So don’t speak of rainbows now
    Because if rain falls at night
    No rainbow ever comes.
    Light must precede it
    And only I can find it
    Inside me.
    But rain must fall still,
    This season of rain.

    Read more: http://hellopoetry.com/poem/season-of-rain/#ixzz1DEFPtIyk

    ***One of the things I wrote on my darkest days. -RC-

    7 Feb 2011

     
 
Lore of your Galaxies
Those twin galaxies of yoursBeckoned on my sister oceans&#8217;shores.I swam away, I heard the lore,&#8216;A furtive glance will ask for more.&#8217;I hid beneath these bitter watersheaven graciously showers,And sank to their esoteric depth-My treasured detaching step.But these shrouds are latent webs,Impalpable yet enthralling herbs,That compelled those galaxies Towards my oceans&#8217;caged reveries.Astral lights came flowing On my secret crevices - cosmic cunning.On faint surrender, oceans reflectedThose lights thought connected.But you feared degrees unknown,Ceased the sailing, you will never own-They you thought mastered the song of lorelei,The depths you will die.Was it that shed leering glimmer From distant galaxies hoverAround the interval that mist coversAnd stirring these waters?My immensity is foreboding,Your vastness is deceiving.Would our core surface, if in mistYou linger and I in abyss?You intoxicate me with cosmic light nothing can sober,But refuse to drink from my oceans&#8217; water.Your galaxies shine on infinityBut are not my property.You are locked on a cache, no one could immerse,Owned by some private universe.The lore of your galaxies, a blurred maze,An immortal quest to my gaze.
***One of the poems I made for someone August 7, 2003 Edited version February 2, 2011.Read more: http://hellopoetry.com/poem/lore-of-your-galaxies/#ixzz1DELeRCqL

    Lore of your Galaxies

    Those twin galaxies of yours
    Beckoned on my sister oceans’shores.
    I swam away, I heard the lore,
    ‘A furtive glance will ask for more.’

    I hid beneath these bitter waters
    heaven graciously showers,
    And sank to their esoteric depth-
    My treasured detaching step.

    But these shrouds are latent webs,
    Impalpable yet enthralling herbs,
    That compelled those galaxies 
    Towards my oceans’caged reveries.

    Astral lights came flowing 
    On my secret crevices - cosmic cunning.
    On faint surrender, oceans reflected
    Those lights thought connected.

    But you feared degrees unknown,
    Ceased the sailing, you will never own-
    They you thought mastered the song of lorelei,
    The depths you will die.

    Was it that shed leering glimmer 
    From distant galaxies hover
    Around the interval that mist covers
    And stirring these waters?

    My immensity is foreboding,
    Your vastness is deceiving.
    Would our core surface, if in mist
    You linger and I in abyss?

    You intoxicate me with cosmic light nothing can sober,
    But refuse to drink from my oceans’ water.
    Your galaxies shine on infinity
    But are not my property.

    You are locked on a cache, no one could immerse,
    Owned by some private universe.
    The lore of your galaxies, a blurred maze,
    An immortal quest to my gaze.

    ***One of the poems I made for someone August 7, 2003 
    Edited version February 2, 2011.

    Read more: http://hellopoetry.com/poem/lore-of-your-galaxies/#ixzz1DELeRCqL


    6 Feb 2011

    Latent Conquest

    Puzzled are my oceans
    As to how Phobos fills them  like cold rains
    While submerged in your galaxies’
    Wine well-stored among memories.

    They are weary troubled how,
    Daunted to even gaze at them now.
    For doubt sprung from fragments
    Of galaxies’ reined luster, now torments.

    On what their distant lights state
    I faithfully patterned my fate,
    As if what to happen they have said,
    But why do they seem misread.

    Does a thousand light years it take
    To reach me and have me awake?
    Is it just  the supernova of the past
    That still holds my trust?

    For what really lies there unknown
    Are blackholes of stars too late shone.
    Ascribing me to circling swarm-
    Sapping sanity to my harm.

    Tell me you are no blackhole
    For I’m no barren ocean you’ll fall.
    We are both lost in tidal capture
    But groping to gain rapture.

    I know my oceans set you adrift
    But forbid you any dip.
    Well, I’m afloat in your galaxies
    That don’t elevate queries.

    Prostrate me by resonant shining,
    Break latent conquest we’re in.
    You’ll see their reflected glitter
    As I submit to your luster.

    *** One of the Poems I wrote for someone November of 2003. Edited version February 2, 2011

    Read more: http://hellopoetry.com/poem/latent-conquest/#ixzz1DEUn5G1H

    17 Jan 2011

     
Rain
Rain taps the earthand fills it,But there&#8217;s a chest empty Of your galaxies&#8217;knocking.Against the coldness,Couples reached,Feeding each oneWith fire they held,While a soul Sought warmth from the cold memory of the brief chance you touched.Rain taps the earthAnd fills it&#8212;Loud to the earsOf that sole listener,When others are gone deafBy the dreams They singin pairs.Rain taps the earthAnd fills it&#8212;The road is not lonely, Only that soulUnder the umbrella Which could not be sharedwith you.SomewhereIn the tapping of rainThat fills the earth,You are rememberedBy the soul Whose own angel Is called With a thousand othersTo bring you home safe,Blessed with theloveelectedunholy.Read more: http://hellopoetry.com/poem/rain-42/#ixzz1BLPbLt9Y

    Rain

    Rain taps the earth
    and fills it,
    But there’s a chest 
    empty 
    Of your galaxies’
    knocking.

    Against the coldness,
    Couples reached,
    Feeding each one
    With fire they held,
    While a soul 
    Sought warmth 
    from the cold memory 
    of the brief chance 
    you touched.

    Rain taps the earth
    And fills it—
    Loud to the ears
    Of that sole listener,
    When others are gone deaf
    By the dreams 
    They sing
    in pairs.

    Rain taps the earth
    And fills it—
    The road is not lonely, 
    Only that soul
    Under the umbrella 
    Which could not 
    be shared
    with you.

    Somewhere
    In the tapping of rain
    That fills the earth,
    You are remembered
    By the soul 
    Whose own angel 
    Is called 
    With a thousand others
    To bring you home 
    safe,
    Blessed with the
    love
    elected
    unholy.

    Read more: http://hellopoetry.com/poem/rain-42/#ixzz1BLPbLt9Y


    19 Jul 2010

    HOLIDAY

    Parking lots are empty

    Streets dragging the sun in silence.

    But my mind and heart do their labor

    Remaining to be occupied by you.

    See me singing and dancing on the floor

    But maybe hear me make no sound.

     

    In here to fill the space of uncertainty,

    Urgency passes by in short notice.

    Waiting calls from men of need

    Disregarding what made sacred to this day.

    Just like how you stole my soul of reasons

    I’m buying back with my spirit of trust.

     

    Clocks of the World in perpetual ticking,

    Golden Cat catching luck hovering in the air.

    I’m wanting to break the monotony

    Of my monogamous thoughts of you.

    Wishing for a holiday, of short eclipses in the afternoon;

    Yet you outshine them all in my darkest hours.

     

    Sad truth, you don’t send me flowers at work,

    Or love notes to cheer me up in the morning.

    All I have is your sweet memory for comfort

    Written in a thousand forms without end.

    Just like the butterfly outside the window,

    Kissing the redolent mark left by the wind.

     

    Unspoken promise had my wings

    Flutter to where heaven was embedded.

    My chest and stomach brimming of your taste,

    I search for respite that never comes.

    Should I trace it downstairs instead,

    Where I perhaps find you waiting for me?

    9 Jul 2010

    Lonely Cords, Happy Chords

    People clap their hands and await

    For your lithe figure claim center stage.

    I watched the lights caressed your face

    As sure as darkness embraced mine.

    Tell me how you find me at your core,

    I’m drenched in amazement in a  state so pure.

    Imagination melts in your feather voice

    As reality congeals in your liquid stare

    Out in the sea of faces drinking your grace,

    They knew their way to me like loud murmurs.

    You are Temptation incarnate holding that guitar,

    Where my fire lit dreams are reborn.

    You fondle those delicate strings

    Like how lovers stroke a beloved’s hair.

    You spoke of bashful sadness,

    But your melody is a sweet whisper.

    Did you steal the sad poetries I wrote,

    And hid them in this joyful song?

    Perhaps you noticed the cords of loneliness

    I wear like embellishments around my neck.

    You took some strands from them

    And attached to that guitar of yours.

    How you command happy chords from them,

    Is the mystery to unravel in this music.

    But every song got a destined last note

    And sadly the answers escape with it.

    All the more when you conclude this performance

    With a furtive smile and a lingering gaze.

    Is it fleeting fancy to play that melody again?

    Or hear you sing those lines of endearment?

    Never been to such place

    Where agony and repose are entwined,

    And time is both brief and eternal.

    But are you as brave, out of that stage,

    To draw out your fragile heart?

    I already mastered the loveliness of pain,

    So please teach me the beauty of joy.

    15 Jun 2010

    In My Ideal World

    I see no other endless tomorrow than

    To lie face to face with you

    On a bed of lavenders and violets.

    The cool sun magnifies

    The verdant fields in your eyes

    And the radiant shadows of my hair.

    Morning breeze enshrouds our bodies

    Sustained by flames more eternal than Vesta’s.

    Here forever after

    In my ideal world.

     

    If I felt hunger it shall not last long,

    For there are nectars from the giant continent that is you.

    If you knew thirst it shall be quenched,

    Just drink from my hidden wells and fountains.

    But remember that I’m not like the ancient Eve

    And you can only be the Adam in our own accord.

    The butterflies or birds won’t shame me.

    The grasses or trees won’t complain.

    For loving you is the only truth

    In my ideal world.

     

    My hands are here to heal and amuse you,

    As long as your arms embrace me from harm.

    We own only the lips and ears

    Where sweet sounds pass by

    To lull as to dream or memorize

    We’ll not know starless night of horror,

    The way the moon becomes our constant watcher.

    We’ll fear no lightning or thunder of wrath

    For the rain will be our noble preserver.

    Come and stay

    In my ideal world.

     

    We don’t have to worry about Sunday

    Or think of God to pray.

    Nature is our divine link to the cosmos,

    And us the perpetual worship fleshed out.

    Celestial or earthly we need not know

    For this is the spot where boundaries depart.

    But all these remain as bright colors in my head

    Unless you key in yourself in my mind

    And enshrine me to your heart.

    Our story can be written by our breath

    On petals and foliage of existence to this place.

    Somewhere we can call ours,

    Come and take

    My ideal world.

    15 Jun 2010

    THE GIRL WHO MOVES THE STARS

    I hear the girl again,

    Strumming the air.

    She knew the waters so well,

    Of those bitter and of those sweet.

    Intoxicated with them,

    She strums the air

    Night and day.

    She retells my story,

    But I never confessed to her.

    She just knew.

    She breathes on it

    Of chosen words,

    Of finest melody.

    I don’t hate her,

    I found on her an ally,

    The girl who moves the stars.

    Has she seen the rains?

    Has she read my soul?

    If you hear her voice,

    She speaks of me,

    Strumming the air again,

    The girl who moves the stars.

    ***For the best composer and friend Gladys V. (written 9/01/2004)

     

    27 May 2010

    NECROPOLIS

    Should be dead by now,

    These thoughts

    Shamed by the harsh light of the day.

    But even the night is no haven,

    For as I hide

    There in the necropolis

    of my broken dreams,

    Your specter beckons

    And impregnates me-

    verse of gloom  given birth,

    ghostly beat resurrected.

     

    This bed should be the grave.

    But even sleep you own-

    Your name engraved

    On the epitaph.

    Reverie you claim-

    Your story is the dismal chanting

    on every corner.

     

    And rising in the morning

    Is like of a starved vampire.

    No satiety is found,

    For everyone walks now

    Under the daylight

    With cold hearts,

    Including you.

    Naughty imps on their eyes,

    Cruel devils on their heads,

    Cunning wizards on their lips.

    Their violence I feel,

    Harboring on silence.

    World is a big necropolis,

    In the guise of a glinting metropolis.

     

    I wish to mourn,

    Shed more tears,

    But redemption never comes

    To this warm heart

    Molded it self to be filled by you.

    For the way to the fire

    It sought but never had,

    Is bound down, down and down.

    Devouring it like a quicksand

    But never grants death nor life.

     

    If time comes

    That it turn to snowy pulse

    Like those of the dead of the day,

    Will your tears and the roses

    Finally be offered mine?

    26 May 2010

    DEMYSTIFY

    You stood there,

    On the cigarette smoke

    Searching for

    That distant fairy

    You had and lost.

    I sat here,

    On the smoke of coffee

    Reading the

    Secretive warlock

    That is you.

    Entities of fairyland,

    They stole your heart

    And returned it to you shattered.

    On empty wine you bottled up

    The tears I traced in your eyes.

     

    At all dimensions you conjure me,

    Messages dressed on odd semantics,

    So my heart sheds red river

    Channeled through this pen, dried to dark blue

    By the icy air around us- I lettered the thoughts.

    Your bottled tears,

    My lettered thoughts,

    The potent spell

    Binding us to this torment,

    Let’s break it for once.

    Nicotine on your lips,

    Caffeine on mine,

    Let’s speak the words of humans.

    Abandon our depths and mysteries,

    Demystify the things between.

    25 May 2010

    Screaming Whispers Say

      

    Break the hush
    Son of moon,
    Lover of sun eternal.
    Have you lost your cloth
    When the night fell?                   
    You let it be stolen
    And the earth grieves
    For what you has and had.

    You finally dug the sunshine
    From the heap of ancient rain.
    But why does the sky weep again?
    Both inner and outer shade of yours
    Are frozen gray photos of each day.

    Screaming whispers say
    You have known your nakedness
    Like a childhood story rediscovered.
    Brought emancipation on to your mind’s stretch
    And an exile to the magnitude of your senses.
    The void gave bleeding to awareness
    And knowledge to a deeper need.

    It was long been admitted,
    You search every pieces of his broken mirror
    To each face, to every tale and to each morning.
    And at night you call the letters he owns
    But no one came as you become a living decay
    Where everything grows as his reminder.

    You know that sun lives in an ephemeral sky
    On the ground where your pain is felt.
    But it only exists as eternal to a latent corner
    Of your head where joy is kept.
    But if you trace it back to earth,
    It is some faded forgotten painting,
    Yet, a deeply etched detail on the other side.